Nanny

David and I hired a nanny today. We are excited. I will finally be able to take my kids to the park and actually play with them versus pull my hair out trying to take care of the baby and chase the two older ones as they run in two different directions.

Charlotte (our nanny) is going to be part time for now, Mon 830-530, tues 830-530, and wed 8-12, we will hopefully bring her on full time by September. I may not need full time though, so we are suppose to play it by ear. She was my kids pre-school teacher at Kinder Care, but she was so wonderful I snagged her up. Actually we have been thinking and praying about hiring one for a while, we started the kids part time three mornings a week in a preschool program till we decided what to do. She was their teacher and she was absolutely wonderful and my kids adored her. I teased a couple times about her coming to work for me and she would laugh, but eventually she took me serious and things went from there. I am blessed to have gotten to know the nanny before I hired her and I actually got to see how my children responded to her.

We really needed someone to help out. I really appreciate my husband in realizing the help I needed. I would love to say that I am the perfect mother but I am not. I find it to be pretty difficult to care for the baby and be able to play with each toddler as much as they need. I find myself fighting within, trying to decide which one is getting my attention first. Besides the fact that my house and my laundry and just myself is completely ignored or unable to be tended to. I know it sounds like I should be able to do it but I can't and I am so hard on myself about it. David just said until they get a little older or at least out of diapers:):) we should get someone to help. I love him for that. Anyway, I will keep everyone posted on how things are working out. I am so relieved and looking forward to more time spent with my babies and not just simply taking care of their needs.